𝖁𝖊𝖓𝖚𝖘𝖎𝖆𝖓𝕵𝖔𝖓𝖊𝖑

Being the risk taker means going against the grain, not giving a fuck how people perceive you, and genuinely embracing a journey that truly aligns with your spirit. The burning sensation that you have when you think about the things you’re passionate about are in alignment with risks that you’re being challenged to take. Growing up as only child, I realized my calling at a very young age but since I was the only child, I was afraid.

As I grew into myself, I realized that life is very much so black and white but as humans we create all the shades in between which is a metaphor for excuses. Everyday is an opportunity to start fresh, and if you choose to live in the past that’s exactly where you’ll exist. I had this wake up call in 2024, realizing I was getting more frustrated with myself and others who were present during my childhood that didn’t help me mentally. But that’s the thing, it’s not anyone’s job but your own to do that.

In life, some people are blessed to not experience heavy loads of trauma. Meaning, house fires, extreme poverty, going to jail, immediate family deaths, sexual assault, abandonment from parents, verbal abuse, lack of support, homelessness, ect. These things literally rewire your brain and it can easily play into your self esteem. For those who has experienced these very unfortunate events, and has a high level of self awareness, your mind forces you into a fearless mentality.

I’ve became that person that on the exterior, I’m fearless and I take risks. While internally I’m like WTF, girl you’re really doing this? Okay cool, let’s go. Because all I have is me. Despite the fact that I have friends and my partner, that doesn’t change the fact that I have to wake up everyday with my OWN purpose, my OWN mind, and my OWN goals. These are the tough lessons I had to learn as an only child that has experienced very heavy trauma throughout my life. But since I have experienced these things, my mindset shifted to “What’s the worst that can happen, I already been through enough fucked up shit”. The silver lining was that I have the strength to get through anything I’m faced with going forward because I know what I want and what I don’t want.

I use to be pitiful, and I would wait around for someone to put me in therapy, coddle me, or simply empathize with me because I needed it more than the weed, clothes, and makeup I’d indulge in during my early 20s. But there comes a time when you realize, nobody can save you but yourself. So I began taking risks! I started a in home hair salon at the age of 21 that lasted for about 6 years, then I moved to Texas alone in 2018. I moved back because things weren’t working out in my favor then when things were and I felt more supported and confident, my partner and I moved back to Houston.

After 4 LONG years here, we’re now moving back to the east coast where we initially met. Although the years in between were challenging because that’s just life, I don’t blame anyone for the life I’ve lived so far. Every decision I’ve made is because I did exactly what my heart and mind told me to do.

That’s the beauty of taking risks, you become wiser. Especially when the risks are lead by you, not solely by your circumstances. So when I ask what do you have to loose when you don’t take risks, this is what I mean. You loose the confidence you need to create, to pivot, to think logically and the ability to decenter everyone in order to achieve YOUR personal goals.