𝖁𝖊𝖓𝖚𝖘𝖎𝖆𝖓𝕵𝖔𝖓𝖊𝖑

What are your thoughts on the concept of living a very long life?

I often think about the age that God may just call me home. Then there’s other days when I’m like can he pick me up later? I’m having way too much fun down here. Life has many highs and many lows but somehow the human mind mainly harbors on the lows because we carry it like pride yet with shame. Life can be so challenging that you can only remember when it hurts but I’ve been trying to make an effort to focus on the great moments because the reality is, I have no idea when my time will be up. I’m not sure if we’re allowed to keep the same memory card once we cross over into the afterlife but I feel responsible for my happiness here.

Sometimes that responsibility can feel like a burden, but it’s actually one of the greatest gifts. Whether you decide to have children, buy the house, the car, get married, WHATEVER: it is absolutely up to you to create the life you want to live. There’s things that I give to God because I trust that he is one of the most powerful, funny, and creative beings to ever live. But when it comes to the mundane things like making sure I love my hair, or loving my own company are totally up to me. The ability to be in charge of your reality can be extremely overwhelming because truthfully WTF IS LIFE ?

But I also think it’s beautiful to know, I’m the boss, I make the rules around here and that makes things fun. Yes money has tried to limit me from living my rich bitch, soft life, but I always find a way to make it work and to make it beautiful. As a sensualist, for me everything has to feel good, smell good, and taste great. Even if I’m creating the illusion that this is something I’m fully in control of even if I’m not, perception is reality.

It’s important to tap into your imagination, I know I have and it’s gotten me through the darkest times in my life. You know why? Nobody truly gives a fuck that you’re sad. That’s why when people ask “Hey, how are you ?”, they’re usually already walking away because who cares right? So you have to take responsibility of your happiness even if it means romanticizing your trip to your local cafe. This mentality has changed how I view this life experience, it’s very unserious, and it’s also something that you have the power to create, and change at any given moment even if you’re faking it til you make it.

But personally, having a long life doesn’t mean shit to me. I would love to live forever to see how fine I’ll be in my 70s and how much wisdom I’ve acquired within my lifetime. But I think what I really do value is living life like it’s my last day living because it might just be.